The crow is back

I needed this one. Just to get back into it. I have been absent this whole year it seems to me. I have new breath. new life. new desire. I miss creating. I miss doing it by my self. It is what I have and I alone. All I need are my eyes and my mind. This is not an original composition. after all, nothing really is. This one was different.I wasn't afraid to fail. like I have been in the past~ where I only wanted to do what I knew I was good at. I took a chance, I said to hell with it. I want to try it. lucky for me, and her really, I am satisfied with taking a step. Now I am hungry to perfect.
I miss everyone. Just so you know.

First Day of School

The kids first day of school is tomorrow! They are so excited to go back.... well, sort of. Jackson has told me many times he is not excited, yet he picked out his outfit about a week ago. so funny. And the girls are sad summer is over, but secretly starving for something to do besides chores and take care of Charley! I feel bad that this summer probably really has sucked for my kids. We didn't get to do HALF of what we wanted too... mostly my fault since I started working FT. So, we roll with it, right? Life isn't all about summer... is it? Today I am not so sure. But I know they will do well in school. I love my kids so much for being willing to be alone all summer... wait... what am I saying? What kid wouldn't love to be alone ALL summer with no parental supervision??? Its not as bad as you think... atleast they cant drive. or i am sure there would be days where they went to vegas without me knowing! That is in the very near future. Anyway, just an update of whats happening around here... we are going back to school. I am sad because now I have to pay a preschool/daycare to watch my child. i HATED that when the others were growing up. Kurt will never understand that. Oh well. So - we will get some pictures (hopefully) of the big day... I am not into the photo thing these days! no time. Oh well - it is a goal to atleast get these done!! Thanks for stopping by! Enjoy the rest of your summer days... my tan has more than begun to fade.... :)

Mi Familia

So back in EARLY July my side of the family had a reunion/bbq in Spanish Fork. The kids were already up in the valley visiting the grandmas and needed a ride home. So I was able to go up and pick up the kiddies AND attend the bbq. It was a fun time. I missed my kids after a few days of being gone, so we came home that night after the bbq.
Here's some picts I snagged while there. Thanks Lynn for taking the ones of all us kids. Mom- I will email them to you so you can have a copy! xoxo















MY personal favorite:

Another TRIBUTE

But this one is a happy one!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST GIRLFRIEND LESA!!!!

OK, I started this playlist earlier this month. I could add to it FOREVER because we have been through so much together, it is our anthem together. I know there are obvious ones I have missed. These songs all speak for themselves, really. But I am going to highlight a couple of memories I have of them anyway.

BUT first, before I do that, I want everyone to know how much I adore my sister. IT hasn't always been so, but now I know our relationship is for a reason. You see, back in the day, we NEVER got along. Or atleast not for very long, maybe an hour or two. We fought over everything. I wont go into the embarrassing details of how picky she was about EVERYTHING, since it is her birthday - i shall hold my tongue. Anywhoo. So now I have a Lesa and a Michelle in my own house. I am much better equipped with the patience to deal with my own two meat heads, since I grew up in a similar situation as they are. So I thank her for all she taught me on how to deal with picky girly girls. :)

So, here are my memories to share with her.
#1 - awwwwe peaches! yes, attack of the killer bimbos is still fresh on my mind!

#2- Jake Ryan. need I say more? no.

#3- 'My addinoids' - again, no further explanation is needed.

#4- 'so, how did he say it? like this? or like this?'

#5- 'LINER!'

#6- Sears department store - I still laugh when I think of that night.

#7- Drawing dot to dots on your legs on the way home from cali, and then you getting in trouble for sweating the pattern off on trevas seats.

#8- hopelessly devoted to youuuuuuuuuuu or Xanadu - whichever or both!

#9- JO from Tuscon.

#10- gum. frozen blueberries. double meat, double cheese, with a medium rootbeer, the picture of mom with a popsicle, clove gum, black licorice, coffee nips, spaghetti every weeknight for a month, bbq chicken on sundays, pita bread sandwiches in powell, watermelon, little ceasers pizza with banana peppers.

So, i hope you know how much I love and adore ya. seriously. I love talking to you on the phone, I love seeing you even more. You still owe me a trip down here... whenever you are ready. I am so happy knowing such a beautiful, wonderful person who has turned out to be a terrific mother, and wife. You inspire me in so many ways. I wish I were more like you. so strong in everything. full of determination, full of passion, full of it. Jk. but really. you are so much fun to be with. I love it. enjoy your playlist, and you must atleast listen to EACH song, but you dont have to listen to the whole thing. Some of them you might not remember from the title alone. So give it a go, and have a wonderful birthday.

{XOX}